I Knew You…I Know You…And You Are Free

When I think of the day of my salvation I think of it kind of like a courtroom scene. So this is a little story I created to help you understand what I think of when I think of the day that God saved me, it’s not real of course, I’m not saying I’m God (thank goodness), just my thoughts 🙂

My child.

Do you remember the day that you became Mine?

I will put it in words that will help you understand: My courtroom.

You were lying on the floor…dead.

I sat before my Son and before your enemy.

The charges were great in number; your prosecution went something like this: “Almighty, great God. You call yourself righteous, the “good” Judge, perfect…that’s the word. But how can you be perfect, the good God, if you allow…her into your midst? Look at her…she’s dirty, filled with hate, rebellious, a gossiper and that’s only some of what goes on on the outside…on the inside she’s angry, has lustful thoughts, backstabbing…how can you love her? How can you accept her? You’re being hypocritical…you can’t allow her…”

I’m not going to lie, I cannot lie. I was angry. He was right about you, I am God. I knew you before you were born, and I know you. Everything he said was true about you. What your enemy did not know is this won’t be the last time you would be accused. I am God, who is righteous, and cannot allow the stench of sin in My presence. I am an angry God, I am a jealous God, but what your enemy forgot was that I am a loving God.

It was my Son’s turn…He was your defense.

He stood in front of you, right in front of you, in a way that I could not see you, I could only see Him. He turned around to look at you and closed His eyes. He was remembering the day He died. He remembered the betrayal, the accusations, the nails, and the day I turned My back from Him. The moment He truly felt the separation from Me…His own Father. You can’t know it or understand it because you were born in sin. You will never know what it’s like to be in perfect harmony with Me until the Day I call you home. I love my Son.

As He stood before me, in between you and Me He simply said: “I died for her.”

The gavel dropped and the case was closed.

My Son carried you, He cleaned you, He brought you to me and I placed a clean, and new heart in you…and just like that you awoke. You were a new person. I remember the first breath you took with your new heart. You were re-born.

Did you forget you were mine? Did you lose your way? You WERE dead. You are no longer dead, you are Mine. You are Mine forever. I picked you. I chose you to be Mine. I love you and a Day is coming where we will be together forever, but until that time, don’t lose your way. Trust me. I have your days planned out, I know your future. You don’t. You don’t have to worry, you don’t have to be angry, you don’t have to be scared. I’ve got you. I’ve got your life planned out, I remember the day you took your breath and I know the day you’ll take your last breath. I love you. I’ll love you forever. I knew you…and I know you…and you are free.


Romans 8: 1-5, “Therefore there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus has SET YOU FREE from the law of sin and of death. For what the Law could not do, weak as it was through the flesh, God did sending His own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh and as an offering for sin, He condemned sin in the flesh, so that the requirement of the Law might be fulfilled in us, who do not walk according to the flesh but according to the Spirit. For those who are according to the flesh set their minds on the things of the flesh, but those who are according to the Spirit, the things of the Spirit.”

Psalm 103:8-13 “The Lord is compassionate and gracious, Slow to anger and abounding in lovingkindness. He will not always strive with us, Nor will He keep His anger forever. He has not dealt with us according our sins, Nor rewarded us according to our iniquities. For as high as the heavens are above the earth, So great is His lovingkindness toward those who fear Him. As far as the east is from the west, So far has He removed our transgressions from us. Just as a father has compassion on his children, So the Lord has compassion on those who fear Him.”

We are FREE friends! Free of guilt, shame, sin, the enemy, ourselves, we are free! And “who can stop the Lord almighty!” He is coming for us! Our Father is coming for His beloved children! Nothing can stop Him. He has won the battle over literally EVERYTHING! He’s coming, hold on, He is coming!

John 14:1-3 “Do not let your heart be troubled; believe in God, believe also in Me. In My Father’s house are many dwelling places; if it were not so, I would have told you; for I go to prepare a place for you. If I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and receive you to Myself, that where I am, there you may be also.”

How are we to live? We are to live with our eyes, ears, hearts, and lives focused on bringing glory to God in however way He wants us to. You are forgiven and free, live in the freedom! Don’t take advantage of it, but live in it!

Thanks for reading!

Sarah S.


Quote from Charles Spurgeon

I LOVE Charles Spurgeon. For those of you who don’t know Charles Spurgeon was a theologian who lived 1834-1892. I don’t want to tell you to much information because you should DEFINITELY look him up and some of his books. They’re incredible. This is a quote from his book The Treasury of David which is basically a commentary on the book of Psalms. This quote is from:

Psalm 8: 1 “O LORD our Lord, how excellent is thy name in all the earth ! who hast set thy glory above the heavens.”

“Unable to express the glory of God, the Psalmist utters a note of exclamation. O Jehovah our Lord ! We need not wonder at this, for no heart can measure, no tongue can utter, the half of the greatness of Jehovah. The whole creation is full of his glory and radiant with the excellency of his power; his goodness and his wisdom are manifested on every hand. The countless myriads of terrestrial beings, from man the head, to the creeping worm at the foot, are all supported and nourished by the Divine bounty. The solid fabric of the universe leans upon his eternal arm. Universally is he present, and everywhere is his name excellent. God worketh ever and everywhere. There is no place where God is not. The miracles of his power await us on all sides. Traverse the silent valleys where the rocks enclose you on either side, rising like the battlements of heaven till you can see but a strip of the blue sky far overhead ; you may be the only traveller who has passed through that glen ; the bird may start up affrighted, and the moss may tremble beneath the first tread of human foot ; but God is there in a thousand wonders, upholding yon rocky barriers, filling the flowercups with their perfume, and refreshing the lonely pines with the breath of his mouth. Descend, if you will, into the lowest depths of the ocean, where undisturbed the water sleeps, and the very sand is motionless in unbroken quiet, but the glory of the Lord is there, revealing its excellence in the silent palace of the sea. Borrow the wings of the morning and fly to the uttermost parts of the sea, but God is there. Mount to the highest heaven, or dive into the deepest hell, and God is in both hymned in everlasting song, or justified in terrible vengeance. Everywhere, and in every place, God dwells and is mani festly at work. Nor on earth alone is Jehovah extolled, for his brightness shines forth in the firmament above the earth. His glory exceeds the glory of the starry heavens ; above the region of the stars he hath set fast his everlasting throne, and there he dwells in light ineffable. Let us adore him “who alone spreadeth out the heavens, and treadeth upon the waves of the sea ; who maketh Arcturus, Orion, and Pleiades, and the chambers of the south.” (Job ix. 8, 9.) We can scarcely find more fitting words than those of Nehemiah, ” Thou, even thou, art Lord alone ; thou hast made heaven, the heaven of heavens, with all their host, the earth, and all things that are therein, the seas, and all that is therein, and thou preservest them all ; and the host of heaven worshippeth thee.” Returning to the text we are led to observe that this psalm is addressed to God, because none but the Lord himself can fully know his own glory. The believing heart is ravished with what it sees, but God only knows the glory of God. What a sweetness lies in the little word our, how much is God’s glory endeared to us when we consider our interest in him as our Lord. How excellent is thy name! no words can express that excellency; and therefore it is left as a note of exclamation. The very name of Jehovah is excellent, what must his person be. Note the fact that even the heavens cannot contain his glory, it in set above the heavens, since it is and ever must be too great for the creature to express. When wandering amid the Alps, we felt that the Lord was infinitely greater than all his grandest works, and under that fueling we roughly wrote these few lines: —

Yet in all these, how great soever they be, We see not Him. The glass is all too dense And dark, or else our earthborn eyes too dim. Yon Alps, that lift their heads above the clouds And hold familiar converse with the stars, Are dust, at which the balance trembleth not, Compared with His divine immensity. The snow-crown’d summits fail to set Him forth, Who dwelleth in Eternity, and bears Alone, the name of High and Lofty One. Depths unfathomed are too shallow to express The wisdom and the knowledge of the Lord. The mirror of the creatures has no space To bear the image of the Infinite. Tis true the Lord hath fairly writ his name, And set his seal upon creation’s brow. But as the skilful potter much excels The vessel which he fashions on the wheel, E’en so, but in proportion greater far, Jehovah’s self transcends his noblest works. Earth’s ponderous wheels would break, her axles snap, If freighted with the load of Deity. Space is too narrow for the Eternal’s rest. And time too short a footstool for his throne. E’en avalanche and thunder lack a voice, To utter the full volume of his praise. How then can I declare him ? Where are words With which my glowing tongue may speak his name I Silent I bow, and humbly I adore.”

-Charles Spurgeon

Dear Future Husband, I pray for you every night pt. 2

“For there are eunuchs who were born that way from their mother’s womb; and there are eunuchs who were made eunuchs by men; and there are also eunuchs who made themselves eunuchs for the sake of the kingdom of heaven. He who is able to accept this, let him accept it.” Matthew 19:12

I never understood this verse. I’ve heard it maybe a couple of times, and then once in one of my dad’s sermons. At the dinner table on that Sunday afternoon I asked him what it meant. He said, “Some are single by the divine secret Will of God, some are single by the decisions of others, some are single by personal choice for the sake of the Kingdom. But it’s very important to keep this verse in its context.” (I would suggest reading Matthew 19 as a whole).

I remember my heart almost dropping out of my chest when I heard that. ‘There are some people who WANT to be married but aren’t going to be?’ That thought is enough to drive someone insane. Anxiety, frustration, and anger come with that if it’s not combated with the truth.

Self-pity. In a book called “Did I Kiss Marriage Goodbye?” it talked about self-pity and how harmful it is. Carolyn McCulley quotes John Piper, “The need of self-pity does not come from a sense of unworthiness, but from a sense of unrecognized worthiness. It is the response of unapplauded pride (p. 60).” Reading that convicted my heart. I sadly have to say most of the tears I cried were due to my self-pity, my thinking that I deserve something, it’s shameful even saying it now, but God….

God in His mercy has given me such a wonderful mother who knows what to say in the moments when I’m feeling at my worst. She called me to her room one day to ask what was wrong, through tears I tried to explain, and justify, my feelings of loneliness, self-pity, and feeling left out…

She joined me with tears saying I didn’t have to worry, I’ll never forget what she said, “I know you want to be married and have kids, but you have to be patient. Before the foundations of the world God planned your whole life! He saw this day, and He saw tomorrow. He knows what He’s doing, and He has a reason for it. You can’t fill your head with lies, you’re not alone. You’re going to look back on this day and understand all of it, just be patient.”

I love my mom. She always knows what to say in these moments, I believe the words that come from her mouth in these moments are truly from God.

After these talks with my mom I always feel so much better. While I can’t write down everything my mom has taught me about prayer, and patience, another major thing she has taught me is to trust God. I know and understand that, while most women get married, some may not. Another great quote from Carolyn’s book is, “God may change your assignment [singleness] and calling, or you may find that, as the years go by, you are increasingly contented with being single. There’s grace for being so gifted either way.” This gave me so much hope, and confidence. God is good isn’t He? He gives us the grace and mercy to BE content in whatever situation we’re in…as Paul says in 1 Cor. 7. If Paul could be content in whatever circumstance, and he was a human, I (we) can be in our singleness.

Of course my mom cannot promise me that marriage is what God has for me, but she taught me that prayer is powerful. “Are you praying for your future husband?” She asked. “Are you praying that God would make you to be the woman/wife God wants you to be?” Before this time I had never prayed for that, I sometimes prayed for myself being the woman, but I never really prayed for him.

What if he doesn’t exist? Should I still pray for him?

While reading one of my favorite bloggers, Phylicia Delta’s blog, she explains the importance of still praying for your future husband…(please go read her blog!) Do we know if he exists or not? Of course not but that should not stop us from praying for him. We don’t know God’s plan for our lives, but one thing we do know is that we are to bring Him glory, it’s only God’s decision if marriage (for you and for me) will bring Him glory. Ahh trust. Trust God because He truly knows what’s best for us.

I’ve dropped the ball sometimes, but I try to, every night, pray for my future husband. I pray for his salvation, if he is unsaved at the moment. I pray for his relationship with the Lord, that it would be strong. I pray for the moments when he’s down, frustrated, angry, and/or sad that he would find comfort in the Lord, because the Lord is the only one who can give us the comfort we need, no human can, only the Lord…and it’s so great to serve a good God who loves His children. I pray for his leadership, and respect for his parents and the adults in his life. It’s not much but it brings me a lot of joy that, if marriage is something God has for me, I can tell my husband that I prayed for him.

Sarah Skepple

Checkout my previous post “Dear Future Husband, I pray for you every night pt. 1.”

Dear Future Husband, I pray for you every night pt. 1

If I hear someone tell me one more time, “Sarah when you meet your future husband you’ll just know.” I may try to ACTUALLY attack them





Will a light go off in my brain?

Will he be turning his head a certain way?

Will I see our future kids when I look into his dreamy eyes?…(maybe)

What is IT? Obviously some sort of magic happens when you meet your future husband…right? But what if I already thought that I kinda felt it before? Then I’m like PSYYYYYYYCH it’s not that guy!

So what do I do then?

What should I do then?

I convince myself he exists, in convincing myself of this, I’ve believed that God owes me that much.

I used to wonder what was going through God’s mind when He hears that thought in my head…how much pain I was causing just by not being thankful for what I have, and even thinking that God owed ME something?


“For the Lord God is a sun and shield; The Lord gives grace and glory; No good thing does He withhold from those who walk uprightly.” Psalm 84:11.

This Psalm burned in my brain when I read it. ‘Is it not a good thing to get married?…Is it not a good thing for ME to get married?’ I ask myself all the time ‘what’s wrong with me?’ I mean obviously it’s not good for me to be married, so I have to prepare now to be alone forever. I’ve spent long nights in tears: angry, frustrated, confused, sad…all because I had convinced myself that every time a guy broke my heart, every time a guy told me “you’re my friend,” every time I watched all of my siblings and friends get into relationships (or even a person of the opposite sex have feelings for them) it was a sign…a long road preparing me for lifelong singleness.

I’m only 21 and I’ve watched 15 year old’s holding hands with their boyfriends, 18 year old’s walk down the aisle toward the love of their life…and 20 year old’s lovingly looking into the eyes of their first child. My heart grew dark with envy and jealousy. I stayed off social media “that’ll help” I told myself. If I can’t see the pictures or posts I won’t feel anything…then sooner or later I’ll accept the fact that I’m going to be single forever.

I was wrong to assume that my problem lied within Facebook. My problem lay within my heart. Even when I stayed off for two weeks at a time, my thoughts never stopped. I was just so angry with God, and what He was putting me through (because God TEMPTS us to sin right?…WRONG!)….

(to be continued) 


My Bible

The Holy Book, God’s Word, the Scriptures, my Bible. It’s more than just a book to me.

It comforts me when I’m sad, it makes my heart glad.

It convicts me when I’ve done wrong, it’s so very, very long.

It teaches me not to judge, so I cannot hold a grudge.

Most importantly it tells me about God’s Son, and all of the wonderful things He’s done.

I remember being told of it’s Words when I was young, and they will stay with me when I’m old.

Sarah Skepple